Days that begin with stunning arrogance rarely go well for me. I’ve had a lifetime to learn this. One case in point: February 2017 match with fight legend Christine Dupree:
Somebody had a victory in there but.. who? Best to avoid reflecting upon total exhaustion and weeklong recovery because Christine and I have scheduled a rematch for this week. Didn’t I say something in a recent post about looking forward to time off? Yeah, right. Gent who ordered rematch requested that I wear same black bikini as above, thus forcing me to gaze at photos from previous altercation. A number of shots seem disconcertingly similar to fabled ending of Rocky 2. Wish I hadn’t looked.
Tonight I return to 2017 (think I’ve posted enough old pics recently.) Shot above photos yesterday and spent all of today running errands. Huge thanks to Brad for the wonderful new book selections!! Picked up mail earlier and found myself touched yet again by your unerring instinct, thoughtfulness, and generosity. Very interestingly, (at least to me), I have read People Who Eat Darkness before although I didn’t immediately recognize the title. If memory serves it came into my life through an odd channel. Think I may have dreamt the words “people who eat darkness” Googled the phrase, and come across the book which I then ordered. Now it has returned to me again. Perhaps it has some significance that I will glean during the second perusal. Found book riveting the first time but could not figure out why I had encountered it in a dream. Incidentally, I received Hexagram 5 line 4 while reading People Who Eat Darkness in 2013 and, honestly, that freaked me out a bit. I began assessing new acquaintances more carefully. Thanks again for the reading material!
Very tired but will return tomorrow to answer new post comments and do video uploads, including a “dreamy” new selection called Bedtime Fable:
About a year ago I wrote a poem entitled Ballad of Isolation. Cameraman Jon White, also an accomplished musician, wanted to put a spoken word poem to music so I read Ballad of Isolation for him. Song is now playing at Amazon, iTunes, and most other downloadable music sites. Love Jon’s music but still react oddly to the sound of my own voice. Some of you may recognize lyrics from this March 2016 post. Check out Ballad of Isolation when you get a chance. Words do come from the heart. Since Andy‘s passing I don’t have any friends in my neighborhood and also spend an inordinate amount of time in motel rooms. Briefly I became acquainted with a nice couple in my building but they got kicked out. Lol.. that’s just how the past few years have been. I feel intensely grateful for the blessings of my existence – especially all the wonderful people who visit me here at my blog and my good friends who reside in other regions of LA – but I have been wallowing in solitude for a while now. Above pics sum up situation very well: I could afford a marginally better motel room but why spend extra dough just to lie on unfamiliar sheets all by myself? Btw.. I never use creepy bedspread, always bring home-laundered blanket.
Hope I don’t sound like too much of a sad sack. This phase shall pass. Due to solitude I’ve expanded my mind in ways I never could have anticipated (thank you, I Ching.) Ballad of Isolation will eventually represent the past even though I still seem to be living it at the moment. Enough verbiage – I should post a nudie pic:
Honestly, I may get lonely at moments but I’m way happier and wiser than when I took above pic in 2008. The transition continues..
Has anyone seen above pics before? An entire set of them exists – just came across it while looking for something else. They correspond to one of the lowest points of my life, December 31, 2008. Not sure if I ever posted the photos anywhere. One day after shooting them I resolved to consume alcohol only five days a week instead of seven. Honestly, the images look better than I remember. I vividly recall viewing my big fat moonface swollen by alcohol in January 2009 and feeling ashamed. Somehow that Dolly Parton hairstyle just made everything worse. Now I realize that self-loathing had distorted perception; photos don’t look much different from thousands of others I have taken over the years.
Lol.. went off on a tangent there. Tonight I had merely been intending to post a few nudie pics, promise to return this weekend, and go to bed. With no exaggeration I have probably shot over 40 videos this month and my body, independently of my brain, feels exhausted. Ides of May passed pleasantly at STJ’s ring yesterday with six (or was it seven?) other wrestlers and I had just enough time to add a new video appropriately entitled Ides of May to TanyaTV.com when I got home. Shooting continues this week but I intend to stay home all weekend after I finish, catch up on post comments, and relax. Literally going to bed at 6pm this evening. Guess that says it all. Hope everyone is doing well!
Funny thing.. I thought that pics above came from 1984-Aerobicise but just realized that they do not. No time to investigate now but during several successive years I did a series of workout videos which I came to think of as an homage to my personal inspirations Arlaine Wright and Bess Motta. Does anyone else remember them? Half the working men in America used to watch their 5AM exercise show on local TV during the early 1980s. I loved those ladies. Still do.
Anyways, will reminisce later.. must start packing. Looking forward to answering post comments as soon as I have a chance. Hope everyone is having a great week!
I have returned to civilization from weekend shooting + a short road trip. Rather than buckling down to catch up on work/housework I headed to the beach this morning. Cool breeze rippled ocean water, wafted through my hair as I sat in the sand and meditated. Felt so wonderful. Public restroom was a different story. City officials have seemingly begun a crackdown on prostitution which was occurring in restroom area. They have removed all enclosures around toilet stalls and now leave front entrance door propped open. When I pulled down my pants today I noted with amusement that a highrise condominium development on shoreline literally has an unimpeded view into ladies’ restroom. Occupants would need to use binoculars but there is nothing to block them from spying on each and every woman who utilizes the facilities.
Just ate dinner (Cheerios) and thought I would post some pics from March 27 shoot with Alix Lynx. As you can see our wrestling match was not as lopsided as my March 31 altercation with Saharra Huxly. Lol.. last week of March 2017 was quite memorable. In between those wrestling matches I encountered two dogs – blue pit bull and small chihuahua mix – running loose near my home. Normally I drive like a grandmother but suddenly I was flipping U-turns in the middle of the street, passing cars, merging onto the sidewalk but the dogs kept eluding me. Finally I parked vehicle, grabbed leash I keep in car for this purpose, and pursued them on foot. Many twisting, turning blocks later three wonderful ladies and I cornered dogs outside a restaurant and held them there until owner (thank goodness dogs wore ID tags) arrived in a taxi to reclaim them. I drove owner and dogs home while she explained that pit bull had already busted several locks on gate which leads into her property. She seemed a bit overwhelmed. I called a contractor I know (another pit bull owner familiar with strength of breed) who agreed to stop by and check out the gate. Later that evening lady pit bull owner texted “Thank you soooo much.. now my babies are safe in the yard and can’t get out in the streets. God bless you!” Within minutes I had another message from contractor saying: “You owe me a drink.” He and I agreed to meet on April 1, one day after my scheduled shoot with Saharra.
Honestly, I had no idea of the demolition I would experience at Saharra’s hands on that fateful Friday. Nonetheless, I pulled myself from bed on Saturday morning to meet the contractor at the tavern. Accompanied by a shaft of sunlight I strode into the dimly lit joint, climbed onto a barstool, and uncharacteristically ordered a coffee as pub door swung shut behind me. “I’ll have a real drink when my friend gets here.” I assured bartender. Friend never got there. Instead he sent several messages asking where we had agreed to meet, feigning confusion about time, place, etc. until I tossed phone into purse and ordered a Stoli on the rocks. If I could survive three matches with Saharra Huxly (yes, three) and show up on time then I had absolutely no patience for whatever excuse contractor might proffer. During trip to ladies room I did notice that wall art in pub had changed since my last visit:
Evidently pub owner keeps green paint on hand to periodically erase graffiti. Something about those renderings seemed almost tribal and mesmerizing when I saw each of them – guess I was drunk. Lady from 2015 has vanished but I stared at tiger for just as long as I had gazed at lady’s face two years earlier. Good thing I was establishment’s only female patron on both occasions.
Although April began on a strange note I spent time with friends in a different corner of Los Angeles County last weekend and really enjoyed the short road trip. In their neighborhood even the local Wendy’s fast food franchise has a nice view:
Getting ready for more shooting but will return to answer post comments this weekend. Hope everyone is having a great week!
Somebody (1970s TV era) used to wear a red mask just like the one sported by Virtue above. Can’t remember who.. thought maybe Electra Woman or Dyna Girl but no..
I will think of it sooner or later. In any case, superheroine Virtue is facing yet more astonishing travails, this time in the Land of Cameron. Will she survive sadistic forces which threaten to rob her of life, limb, and dignity??
Earlier I began answering blog comments. Big thanks to all of you who take time to write. I always enjoy hearing your thoughts and will answer each message. Still have more to go. CatfightBlogger requested that I upload Purgatory starring Akira Lane vs. myself to my Clips4Sale store so I am working on that right now.. I shall return. Hope everyone is having a great Thursday!
Hosting company had an outage so you may have noticed that TanyaDanielle.com went down for about 24 hours. Now I’m back in action.. sort of. Pics from Friday (Saharra Huxly vs. someone I used to know) speak for themselves.
This is how I spent weekend after the match:
Lol.. my site had an outage and so did I. Just kidding.. pic above is from soon-to-be-released video Mind Fuck but it does sort of reflect how I’ve been feeling since Friday. Hope everyone had a pleasant Monday. Please check out my newest updates for the week:
Feel like I just got hit by a locomotive. Today’s matches with Saharra Huxly capped a long streak of shooting and other activities. This weekend I will have time to answer blog comments, post more pics, lie in bed with ice packs.
Longtime friend Rainier, former manager of legendary Wild Goose Cabaret, and I were supposed to meet for a drink after shoot but I was too beat (literally.) My text to him about Saharra said it all:
“She is the most dominant woman I have ever met. No close second.”
Returned home from yesterday’s match with Christine Dupree to find that ringmaster STJ had already uploaded some photos from our bout. Still recovering from that Sunday punch. Christine is probably nursing her wounds across town..
Incidentally, that same aqua blue bikini (thanks, Phil!) has seen quite a bit of action in recent years:
Exactly one year ago today I was outside Jack in the Box, staring into night sky, writing Black Forest as I waited for sun to rise. World had become increasingly unfathomable and I felt lost in something akin to a black forest. This year I greet Ides of March with a bit of anticipation. Some of my favorite YouTube prognosticators (David Stockman and James Perloff foremost among them) are predicting financial chaos on this day. Upheaval can often lead to beneficial reform and US markets seem to need it.
Once again this morning – just like last year -I sat in drive-thru parking lot (Taco Bell this time) sipping coffee and gazing into darkness. Yet one more time I found message in night sky:
Ides of March
Mosaic pieces drift like ghosts,
Align themselves on seven coasts,
Rise higher than imposing larch,
Convey words from eternal hosts:
“Hear ye! Beware the Ides of March!”
Not sure if March 15, 2017 will go down in history or not but I did notice another message on my coffee cup when I returned home:
Didn’t get the angle quite right but full text on Taco Bell coffee cup reads “Let this Epic Day Begin”. Lol.. I feel ready for an epic day. Have lots of shoots coming up with assorted costars such as Christine Dupree, Alix Lynx, and Saharra Huxly. Contact Jay at firstname.lastname@example.org for info on ordering your own custom video.
Oh, yes.. couldn’t very well do a post without adding a few nudie pics. Top photos feature Donna Von Cornelius (hapless secretary from soon-to-be-released True Detective video) who evidently did not receive warning about Ides of March danger 😉
Hope everyone is having a great Wednesday. I will return to answer post comments within the next few days.
We live in crazy times. Even Captain James T. Kirk (transformed by gender bender cannon) finds himself challenged. Just added Star Trek Star Cross 2 starring Prinzzess Felicity Jade and myself to TanyaTV.com:
Uberhuman creature radiates grace,
Scientifically honed deception,
Toxic subterfuge beneath red hot glace.”
Message on communicator confuses rather than enlightens Captain James T. Kirk. Alone on mission he can make no sense of puzzling words. Someone is attempting to warn him about… a blonde Amazon? A genetically engineered threat? Sublime trickery? Red hot ice?? Sudden noise returns Kirk to present moment. Instantly on guard captain brandishes phaser, comes face to face with towering blonde Amazon, watches in astonishment as beguiling beauty’s scarlet space suit liquefies into lethal concoction of red hot ice..
(Prinzzess Felicity Jade and Tanya Danielle star in Star Trek Star Cross 2, a sci-fi adventure featuring transgender supervillain, compulsory masturbation, lesbian domination, forced blowjob on dildo, simulated sex, orgasm, crushing subjugation of Captain James T. Kirk. Co-produced by MK.)
Think Prinzzess may have been a sex-crazed alien in a former life. She brings remarkable passion to her role 😉
I had a great Valentine’s Day with Stacy Burke until our live web chat devolved into a knockdown drag out drunken fight. Just kidding. Pics above come from soon-to-be-released sexfight video All-nighter. Those who missed my live Valentine’s Day chat with Stacy can check it out here. Very busy week of shooting and preparation but I will return to answer post comments within the next few days. In the meantime Valentine’s Day lives on:
Boxer jerks awake amidst pool of sweat. Strange dream lurks on periphery of consciousness, falls off edge before she can recollect details. Clearly nightmare was warning her about something.. or someone. Always mindful of omens fighter realizes that she must watch her back, prepare for any unexpected challenge that may arise..
(Lisa Tiffian and Tanya Danielle star in Rage, an interracial boxing match featuring topless athletes, thongs, boots, mouth guards, staredown, referee, belly and tit punching, clinching, standing eight counts, decisive KO.)
Not sure how “Olympic fighter” worked its way into my text description but I like the ring of it 😉 I should have Rage available for download tomorrow on the Catfight page at TanyaTV.com. In the meantime enjoy new updates at