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I feel like going back to bed. A few days ago I filled out an application to volunteer for a local hospice organization.  My phone started ringing within minutes after I submitted the online form.  An extremely efficient lady was calling to give me information about their next training seminar. I went to bed that night feeling good about it. Yesterday she sent an e-mail requesting that I bring my social security card to the seminar and also fill out a form which will enable her to run a background check on me. I lost my social security card years ago. And.. what to make of this background check? What do they look for in a background check other than a criminal record? These issues danced in my head until I sat down and replied to her. I included these paragraphs in my response:

“.. I don’t have the actual social security card but I do have a copy of it which I am attaching to this e-mail. It bears my childhood address but my signature still looks exactly the same. Will this be sufficient? If not, I will go to the social security office. In the past I’ve discovered that it is often easier to deal with government agencies in person rather than by mail. In regard to another issue, you mentioned that you will need to run a background check on me. I have no criminal record but was arrested for DUI at a sobriety checkpoint in April 2010. In July 2010 I accepted a plea agreement which reduced the charge to reckless driving. Also, I do not know what type of information turns up in a background check but I have had a very long career in adult entertainment. Throughout the decades I have variously described my occupation on tax returns as entertainer, model, or actress.

Originally I thought I would meet you before mentioning any of the above but it seems prudent to do it now so I can potentially avoid wasting any of your time. I do realize that many people have a profoundly negative impression of adult entertainers and, consequently, I may not be a good match for your organization. A few years ago I read an article in which a hospice nurse described how some terminally ill patients would receive vouchers to live in motels where they would go to die alone. Her statements really affected me and since then I have wanted to offer assistance to people who, in some regards, have lived (and may die) outside the bounds of traditional society. Please do let me know if you would still like me to come to the training seminar on March 31. If you feel that my background will be problematic for your organization I will look for another volunteer opportunity for which I may be better suited..”

Yes, I know that it will make me no less of a person if this organization decides not to accept me as a volunteer but writing those words left me feeling a bit vulnerable. Looking at a copy of my old social security card with my legal name and Atherton, CA address – stark reminder of the identity and the home that I relinquished so, so long ago – reawakened some twisted, confused emotion in me too. Full moon will be rising tonight. Maybe the tidal pull is affecting my equilibrium ;)

XO Tanya

 

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Cherokee

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Petite, raven-haired Cherokee and I first met on the video set of a 2002 production for Adam & Eve Studios (pics second row from top). She and I did a crazy 4-girl orgy with Kim Chambers and Felix Vicious. I think the scene starts as a catfight and evolves into a sexfest with very large dildos.  Well-known female director Toni English filmed the footage at actress/producer Skye Blue’s now defunct Canoga Park, California studio. On that day Cherokee seemed very enthused about her new porn career and also gushed about her boyfriend back home, possibly in Tennessee or Kentucky. She radiated happiness and exuberant energy. In the coming years Cherokee and I shot together often, frequently for large XXX production companies. As time passed she grew quieter and more withdrawn. Even though she smiled with warmth and always had a great attitude I could sense some type of sadness beneath the surface.

Cherokee established an official website which I used to glance at from time to time. On one occasion she described her frustration with a rental car clerk who tried to make arrangements for paid sex when she was picking up a vehicle. I could relate to her anger. Fans posted supportive comments in response to her words. Eventually Cherokee’s website vanished and, shortly afterward, she disappeared too. Long ago I devoted a blog to her and you can see in the comment fields where fans express puzzlement and sadness at her abrupt, unexplained departure.

On FreeOnes.com someone describes Cherokee as “underrated”. I agree with that. Throughout her prolific career she always remained beautiful, physically fit, intensely sexual, and very sweet – qualities which put her head and shoulders above most of the talent in the industry. Not sure why she failed (through no fault of her own) to garner quite as much recognition as she deserved. Even her Star Page at HotMovies.com seems oddly flat, kind of like someone wrote it at 4:58pm with the intention of leaving the office by 5pm.

I saw Cherokee for the last time during the 2005 shooting of Lesbian Milfs. In keeping with our shared history we had a wild catfight which lead into a passionate sexcapade. On that date I had filmed three different scenes. Cherokee came at the very end of a long day. The producer, Rick, and I watched her drive away in a new SUV after we finished the video. “That car is the first thing that she ever bought for herself.” I remember him commenting. The resignation in his voice conveyed the sense that she deserved better circumstances than life had dealt her. That moment in the moonlight made a distinct impression on me. It seems very vivid even now.

This may sound silly but Cherokee lingers in my mind as sort of a female warrior figure. Even through difficulties she always retained her beauty, her kindness, and a positive outlook. The adult industry breaks a lot of women – they grow bitter, disillusioned, and angry – but Cherokee had some type of profound inner strength which enabled her to keep her dignity and self-respect. I hope that she is well.

Earlier this morning I added Deep Inside Cherokee (bottom pic) to TanyaTV.com.  Infamous custom video pioneer Mike Raffone shot this exclusive footage in July 2004. Longtime custom video fans will recognize his signature teal green couch in the background ;)

XO Tanya

 

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Ex Libris

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I would like to thank the generous stranger who mailed me a treasure trove of books (and one DVD) this past week. It gave me great pleasure to unwrap each selection and I really look forward to immersing myself in the material. A nearly full moon is rising over Los Angeles right now – always a perfect accompaniment for a night of reading! Thank you also for the encouraging and inspiring letter. I greatly appreciate your taking the time to write. The new additions to my library seem very likely to invigorate my senses and my writing. Have a wonderful week! I will follow your lead and do my best to spread good karma.

XOXO Tanya

 

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Taylor Wane

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In recent years Taylor Wane and I have had a few contentious encounters. I wrote about one of these episodes a few months ago. Obviously the above pics were taken during better times. Not sure what Taylor is up to these days but her college fund-raising efforts don’t seem to be going very well. We last saw each other during this shoot when I became extremely angry at her for repeatedly hitting me in the face. Suffice it to say that the day ended badly even though we did finish the video. I respect Taylor for her tenacity, determination, wit, and intelligence. She carved out a very lucrative niche for herself within the adult industry. Unfortunately she provoked me one too many times. Sometimes people make continued collaboration impossible. Because of her beauty and charisma I could easily forget the past and shoot with her again but I don’t even know if she is still making videos or not. Click here to check out Taylor’s Star Page at HotMovies.com.

XO Tanya

 

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Monica Mendez

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I used to dance with Monica Mendez at the now defunct Century Theatre in LA. Monica wrote a book about many of her experiences at the club. In 2005 or so she and I spent a day shooting material for Danni.com. I have not found any of that footage but it must be lurking in their archives. In the early days of her career Monica mostly danced, did a lot of nude glamour work, and a handful of girl-girl scenes. I just received word that she has resurfaced at her Official Site and is once again doing webcam shows. Her huge boobs look more magnificent than ever.

XO Tanya

 

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Veronica Ricci

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Lovely Veronica Ricci entered the adult industry around 2008 when I met her. I believe that she has now retired so I feel lucky that we had a chance to shoot a few videos together. Like most stunning beauties she had a very sweet, classy personality. In my experience the absolute 10s usually do. I have added Springtime Sexfest starring Veronica, Goldie Blair, and me to my Diamond Club Members’s Area. This week I will also be adding the 2-part Sexy Sisters series featuring Veronica. Click here for a sexy layout of Veronica from Cheri magazine.

XO Tanya

 

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Storm Alert

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Imagine relaxing at home when unseen entities begin communicating with you via moans and howls. Even better, picture yourself sitting on a toilet when the voices of nature decide to summon your attention. I wrote about this a few days ago. The sounds originate from a window inside my shower which leads to a ventilation shaft. Earlier today I scaled the side of my building in a flowing, black cape to take some photos. Above you can see the external structure of my shower window, the interior of the shaft itself, plus the very beginnings of a new storm which is approaching Los Angeles as I type these words. Forecasters predict that the deluge of rain will start around 9pm tonight. I will have to tighten my cloak and put on an extra layer of fishnets ;)

Hope everyone is having a great Friday!

XO Tanya

 

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Megablonde

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What happened to vintage superheroine Megablonde? She materialized sometime during the last millennium and then vanished into the ether.  Fueled by milk and zeal for justice she single-handedly apprehended legions of criminals and made the world a safer place.  Will she ever reappear? Enjoy this classic Megablonde footage for a limited time inside my Diamond Club Members’ Area. I rotate material in and out of the Diamond Club on a weekly basis.

XO Tanya

 

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