On this night of the full flower moon I greet you from home. Right now I am uploading footage from May 6 shooting of Barricade (pics above.) Early in the morning of May 4 I had discovered that my right eye had gone blind. Staying calm I found the name of a local ophthalmologist and booked an appointment. He could not see me until 1:40pm so I consulted Dr. Google in the interim. Try searching “sudden blindness” and you will see a wide range of causes for the condition which range from fairly minor to de facto death sentences. Fortunately, and I just said another prayer of thanks, later that afternoon I learned that I had mysteriously developed a dense cataract in my right eye. Doc referred me to county hospital, cautioned me to have surgery as soon as possible because he suspected that cataract was starting to liquefy. I delayed hospital visit so I could shoot six custom videos booked long before in advance. On Tuesday, May 10 I drove to the emergency room where I stayed busy in the waiting area by writing promotional text for Barricade:
“Black lacquer gloves commit
Reveal hard, metal dick
In cruelly intimate
Collective mind warp trick.
Armed, dangerously fit
Dame commandeers gold brick,
Escapes to darkened pit.. ”
Barricaded inside dingy motel bandit celebrates heist with rhyming verses, champagne, ill-gotten gains. Still clad in tactical gear – crotch boots, gloves, G-string, mask – she anticipates arrival of local constabulary. Eminent shootout promises dark thrills at supremely high cost. Gold bubbles float from champagne flute into brain. Stepping in front of full-length mirror outlaw..
At this point nurse summoned me to private area where she checked my vitals, prepared me for doctor. ER doc informed me a bit snippily that cataracts are “never urgent”. She seemed to change her tune after examining my eye. Soon a different nurse was leading me to ophthalmology department upstairs. Several doctors probed eyeball, performed preliminary procedure, scheduled me for first available surgery date. To make the long story short I underwent surgery, fully conscious, this past Monday. As operation progressed voices of two female doctors expressed puzzlement over something which I did not fully comprehend. The following morning one of the surgeons removed bandage which covered eye. “I can see!” my spirit blurted as shaky room sort of came into focus. “I was scared going into that surgery.” doctor told me. “We had expected to find damage underlying the cataract but we did not see any.” Elaborating further she explained that she knew of only one other patient who had developed a blinding cataract in a short span of time for no apparent reason. Now I understood what she and the other doctor had been discussing as I lay on the operating table.
For the past five days I have mostly been staying home and dumping large quantities of prescription drops into eye which looks sort of bloody and tortured right now. Vision is improving by the day and I thankfully anticipate return to 20-20. Want to see what a cataract looks like? Click here to enlarge pic and check out white disc obscuring right pupil. During video shoots I mostly tried to keep it covered with hair but did not always succeed. Whole experience still seems a bit surreal but I feel intensely grateful for wonderful outcome, great medical care I received at Harbor UCLA Hospital, my friend Paul who rose well before dawn to drive me to surgery.
Hope everyone is doing great. I am going to step outside and admire full moon but will return later to answer post comments.
P.S. Wow!!! Gigantic, neon orange moon just popped out above tranquil ocean. Looks so awesome!
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